“I know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing...through every dark night there is a brighter day after that. So no matter how hard it gets stick your chest out, keep ya head up and handle it”
Tupac Shakur said those great words. Ever since I heard them I have tried to apply them to my life and in every situation I have been through it has rang true. I remember first hearing those words writing them down making sure that every word was exact and every period and comma was in its right spot. I think I carried that note around with me every where for at least a year. The quote spoke to me on so many levels and it still gets me through the saddest of days.
At a point in my life I felt as if god dealt me one of the worst hands. It seemed like everything that could go wrong would go wrong and I felt like my world was crashing down on me in every aspect of my life. I would always ask myself “Why me?” and “How come everything horrid seems to happen to me?”
I can remember when I was seven my dad and I went to the store on my birthday and he told me I could pick put any bike that I wanted. That was one of the happiest days of my life in my household it was not to often where I got just go in the store and get whatever I wanted. Well being the tomboy that I was I picked out this blue, sliver, and yellow mongoose bike, it was a five speed bike and also my first big girl bike. I fell so far in love with that bike that you would think it actually had feelings. I would ride it every day when I came home from school and I told all my friends about how cool it was. So this particular day my friend came home with me to see it. I rushed in the apartment ran to my balcony and my bike was not there. As you could probably tell I went crazy I ran to my dad screaming “where is my bike dad” “it’s gone”. That is when my dad broke the news to me that my mom was gone again and this time my bike among other things was gone with her.
I cried for weeks I was so confused about why she would steal my thing we were mother and daughter flesh and blood, but little did I know then that drugs, crack could have such a strong hold on a person that they lose all sight and control. That was the first day I learned of my moms drug abuse, because it was the first time she lost control. That was also the first day I ever felt my heartbreak. I did not see my mom for months after the incident. I was so hurt, confused and felt as if my world was over. Things got better as they always do and I even summoned up enough energy to forgive my mom but that was certainly not her last escapade. I learned that you can not control others actions and you surely shouldn’t let your happiness depend on them.
That experience was not the only one to make me believe in Tupac’s words. There have been many more experiences not just with my mom but with life in general. Every time that quote has rang true, it will eventually get better and it may not also seem so but the sun is always shining somewhere you just have enough power and strength to make it to and through those days.
